What I Feel Now...

Hello guys, this is me...

One of a lot people who love Super Junior
Everlasting Friend

I became an ELF not from start but I'll promise I'll be ELF till the end.

A few days ago, I heard a news which make me so uncomfortable. On one side, I wanna be happy but on another side, it's really hurt ma heart. As you all known, Sungmin oppa will get married at December 13th, 2014 with his girlfriend. I can't say anything when the first time I heard 'bout the news. In my mind, I think member who get marriage the first is Shindong oppa or Leeteuk oppa but this is... You know, I got this news when I'm studying at school. My tears fall down without my control. Some of my friends are worried to me. I feel deep sorry for my friends now and thanks.

Because of the news, all of my friends, all of my family split into two sides. Again, my tears fall down. Hello... they are my family, my friends but they are fighting because of the news. I pray and ask to Allah, what hapenned with my fandom now? How did it can happen?

Some E.L.F said that they are human but I think fans are human too.

Some E.L.F said that they have a privacy but I think when ppl decide become an idol, they must understand and look what fans feel.

Some E.L.F said that we are just fans but I think they can't became an idol without fans.

I always thinking 'bout that for a few days. And finally I think I'm an arrogant and stupid fans. How can I thinking something like that to my idol. Then I'm crying again.

Became a fans of Super Junior is give my life happines and affect to my life. Before, I have a bad era of my life. Sorry, I can't share what it is because it's really hurt. After know and became an E.L.F, I can forgot that bad memory and be a happy ppl.

What happened to Super Junior and E.L.F right now, I hope it just the step to become more better than before.

Now, Super Junior oppars started to looking their real now. and I think I must looking for my real life from now. I'm in 3th grade of senior high school and will have an exam to determine my future. 

as I say firstly, I will become an E.L.F until the end.

but as not before. For me,  it's so absurd to love people's husband. So, I can't.

as I do before, I will scream when I see Super Junior but no more as before.

I will keep support my Super Junior to get more, more, and more awards.

I will sincere and let my oppars in Super Junior to have girlfriend and married soon.

I will keep my love for them (Super Junior members) and their children.

I always imagine if Super Junior get marriage and have a cute kids like Tablo's family then attend Super Show with their kids and they are dance together on the stage, ouhhh How cute they are! I hope, I will see that moment soon xp.
So, get married soon and have kids for us, oppars :)

I Love yaaa...

Don't leave us pls...

#FANDOMHUG